Panic About Future

I was panicking about my future, particularly about my internship as I told you before. I applied as many internships as possible, hoping that I could at least pass one of the tests held by various organizations hiring.

Opaque Dreams

One of the opaque things in life is dreams. They say it has hidden meanings beyond what are seen but . . . I still don’t get it.

Back when I was able to lucid dream, it was one of the greatest moments of my life. I remember dreamed having a bicycle race where it was sunset and in the middle of the grass field like above — plus the asphalt where I and my opponents were competing and minus the flying balloons. Once I realized that I was dreaming, I went flying off the track and going towards the sun. No kidding.

Why would I dream such a thing? What are the meaning lie beyond it? What am I supposed to do next? Honestly, I don’t know. But I hope that I can lucid dream again. Someday.

Mind the Journey

Once I heard that the process is more important than the results. I think that they’re equally important. Maybe — just maybe — we’re trained to put our standards so high we forget that each man has different journey occurring in his life. We’re trained not to mind the journey.

But the journey is important because that’s when and where we’re developing and maturing ourselves. With growth, comes happiness — and wisdom — because we’re able to see the world in a wider point of view.

I know that climbing the mountain is a hard journey, but usually it’s worth it. Usually.

 

Unending Conundrum

After all this time, I thought the biggest conundrum on Earth is women—but seriously, even now I can’t seem to discern women behavior entirely. But I’m not going to talk about women here. But I think that even though they’re somewhat not like as they seem, they have a magical aura that can radiate love and peace.

But honestly, I think the biggest conundrum in my life is myself. Really.

Manner Like a Baby

I have to admit, actually I am embarrassed by my old self. Really.

Once, I like to blame someone else for the mistakes I’ve done. The smallest trivial thing—like cheating while exams—can also be another problem. When my answers were wrong even though I had written my friends’ answers, I tended to blame my friends. I believed them; I thought they were smarter than me thus they couldn’t be wrong.

Fishing for Likes

One of the things I hate is posts in social media—like Facebook, Twitter, or Instagram— that’s fishing for likes. Yeah, I think they treat that dumb thumb icon like some sort of currency; like it’s a holy thing that can make their positions way above of us.

I am actually already despise this kind of practice for a considerably amount of time. I got a realization—epiphany, if you will— that this like doesn’t give me anything. I think it’s…

Translating a Manifesto. Can I Do That?

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When I read the prompt today, I had to think very hard. “What was there to tell about translation?” Apparently, it took me about an hour researching what to tell.

I remembered that famous manifesto—or essay, call is as you will—made by Mark Zuckerberg. I still think I can’t translate it quite right.

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Reading an essay consists of 5,735 words is exhausting me. It requires a lot of energy to read and translate what he really means. It’s like reading a science journal, when you have to dissect every part of the essay then interpret it using your own words.

All right, here are the main points I got from reading his essay:

You Don’t Have to Get Older

I agree with the statement above, but maybe only partially. Do you know a quote that says…?

You don’t play because you get older. You get older because you don’t play.

A Standing Ovation

In my whole life,
I only have watched one concert.

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It was held by a choir unit of my campus,
and I have to admit,
it was beautiful.

I gave them a standing ovation.

A Better Year, I Hope

Hope it’s not just a new calendar this year.

Last year, I made a lot of mistakes. Some of them costed me a lot of my money, only because of my stupidity. Some costed me my education; others my personal life. Those were my bad decisions, and ultimately shaped who I am today.