A Better Self

I think that someone should be scarred before he can be a better man — physically and psychologically. It can come from many things, ranging from failures, depressions to even disappointment.

Panic About Future

I was panicking about my future, particularly about my internship as I told you before. I applied as many internships as possible, hoping that I could at least pass one of the tests held by various organizations hiring.

Lost Control

After reading the title of this post, I suddenly remember the video above. The first time I watched it, I lost control and laughed too much.

He answered so well he could make the questions asked sounded stupid.

And I think, this cements the stereotype that Asians are generally smarter than any other race, in several particular subjects, of course. Hope I’m not offending someone here.

The Best Perfume

I read the Perfume novel by Patrick Suskind. It tells about a man searching for the best recipe to create a perfume that could spread love.

But that’s not the best perfume for me. It’s the smell of the rain — petrichor — that smells the best. Because it’s natural, and because it’s rare. Not every rain you get to smell a perfume so magical, so earthy. 

Knackered Mind

A knackered mind can only do so little than usually. That’s why I haven’t posted for several days.

My creativity is destroyed; my imagination is limited to just what I have to know so I could pass college. My mind is weary.

Wish I could go back to the past, being kids again. Never have to worry about the future. You don’t have to worry about life, about death, about failure.

Kids, their minds are never knackered. 🙂

Time Zips By

As I went home from college yesterday, I was sort of trapped in traffic congestion. Suddenly, I remembered that one of my sister would be 30 this June, and now I’m 21 years old.

Time zips by, you know. It makes you question what you’ve done with your life, and honestly, I don’t know what I’ve done. And I’m afraid of the future.

An Avid Gamer

I used to dream to make my former hobby (i.e gaming) as my long-life job. You know, the kind who dedicated their lives to bring the best performance in the MMO game championship, like this team. Unfortunately, I’m no longer an avid gamer myself because of certain reasons.

Then, I moved on and temporarily become an avid reader. I bought several famous novel book from Sidney Sheldon — like Master of The Game and Mistress of The Game. And then I realized that my budget wouldn’t support my hobby as a reader, so I ceased.

A Fine Harmony

The instrumental of the day for me — at least for today. This instrumental has a fine harmony, one that can assist me in escaping time and entering an alternate reality — as long as the song is played, of course. Enjoy 🙂

A song by Jimmy Wahlsteen – Roots of Levant (432 Hz)

Brain Fried

Summarily, a brain fried term means that your brain is overworked, overloaded or something like that that makes you don’t feel like doing things especially the things that require thinking, even the things you love doing the most.

For me, this occurs after I’m sitting still in college for several hours straight and doing assignments by sitting for a very long time. Feels like I don’t have a me-time, even when actually I still can afford to do the things I like when I want to. It’s just . . . it’s different.

Chuckle: A Painful Laugh

Usually, I chuckled when I wanted to suppress laugh because the opportunity weren’t appropriate. For instance, when I was insulted but there wasn’t anything I could do, I’d just chuckle to mask my offended feelings. Or of course, when it was about work.

But obviously, I prefer laughing out loud to a chuckle. It’s giving you more freedom and releases more happiness hormones — I always get them mixed up. But my self-image sometimes is more important than mere hormones, so I go for the former.