A Leader, Someday

Someday,
you will be a phenomenal leader,
my dearest nephew,
and I’m sure of it.

A Nature’s Capability

Whenever I see sunrise, I feel mesmerized. Like it’s capable of hypnotize me, making me forgetting all of my problems for a while. I suddenly don’t care about whether I have a girlfriend or not. It’s just so beautiful.

An Unseen Present

Animals, plants, and lives here,
are now unseen,
only to become burnt by some wildfires.

An Exquisite Taste

This fruit is called durian.

For some people, it has unappealing taste or smell,
but for me,
it has the most exquisite taste of all fruits I’ve ever eaten.

Marathon Alone

What if,
I’m tired of running a marathon the same tracks all my life?

Always striving for the best grades,
not that it is bad, but
what if I got bored and uninspired in my major at some point?
I can’t retreat, can I?
I can’t undo my past, right?

Lowering Expectation

But the truth is much more bitter than that, right?

Without expectation, in my opinion we won’t have any reasons to live. No reasons to pursue our dreams or making meaningful changes to this world. It just won’t work. Life would be meaningless.

Without expectation, we would figuratively be zombies.

Relaxing Myself

I am easily bored,
getting all stressed up from my class every Monday – Friday. So many serious subjects to be studied only for little time,too many assignments to do.

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To release myself from dying of boredom, I usually take my time to read. Of course, the relaxing ones. It may be also serious subjects, but it differs in terms of context and pressure. I am able to use my imagination while I am reading subjects that I admire.

Invitation I Declined

When I was offered a scholarship because I was ranked top three in acceptance test for a private university, I chose to decline. Of course I had my reasons.

First, I was afraid of the contract written on the paper. Short story, I had to keep my GPA ≥ 3.50 all the time. That sounded very hard; also painful. It also says that I had to win numerous competition for that university. I took it as a new form of slavery.

The Aesthetic of The World

I actually still admire,
the still images of the view,
stunningly aesthetic.
Even better when the weather is dismal,
bringing a familiar ambience that I love.

Working Too Hard

Entering my home,
feeling tired and overworked,
lying on my bed,
thinking,

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Why am I here?
What am I doing here?
Am I making the right decisions?