Lowering Expectation

But the truth is much more bitter than that, right?

Without expectation, in my opinion we won’t have any reasons to live. No reasons to pursue our dreams or making meaningful changes to this world. It just won’t work. Life would be meaningless.

Without expectation, we would figuratively be zombies.

Relaxing Myself

I am easily bored,
getting all stressed up from my class every Monday – Friday. So many serious subjects to be studied only for little time,too many assignments to do.

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To release myself from dying of boredom, I usually take my time to read. Of course, the relaxing ones. It may be also serious subjects, but it differs in terms of context and pressure. I am able to use my imagination while I am reading subjects that I admire.

Invitation I Declined

When I was offered a scholarship because I was ranked top three in acceptance test for a private university, I chose to decline. Of course I had my reasons.

First, I was afraid of the contract written on the paper. Short story, I had to keep my GPA ≥ 3.50 all the time. That sounded very hard; also painful. It also says that I had to win numerous competition for that university. I took it as a new form of slavery.

The Aesthetic of The World

I actually still admire,
the still images of the view,
stunningly aesthetic.
Even better when the weather is dismal,
bringing a familiar ambience that I love.

Working Too Hard

Entering my home,
feeling tired and overworked,
lying on my bed,
thinking,

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Why am I here?
What am I doing here?
Am I making the right decisions?

Exposure to Rainfall

When it was raining in the city where I lived, I used to just sit in the backyard of my house alone. I like the feeling of exposure to rainfall. It gave me some sort of cold and relaxing feelings. And somehow, I was also feeling the nature’s love. I was exposed, but happy.

Privacy? Does It Still Exist?

Does privacy still exist?

Because as far as I know, the only way to ‘claim’ back your privacy is to disconnect yourself completely from internet. By using internet, they can track you, listen to your conversation, or read your messages. I think it’s terrifying.

Feeling Successful

Being successful, in my opinion doesn’t lie in how rich you are, but rather how happy you are.I take it being successful means you feel something different, something that makes you feel alive and happy. Something that makes you feel you are on the right path.

Some says that being successful means when you work, you feel you’ve never felt working even a day. Well, in reality, I think that there will always be obstacles and difficulties waiting for you. Those are challenges created so you can solve problems around you.